Hello my lovelies! Sorry it’s been months since my last update.
Things have been very busy lately and it’s all getting a bit much for me. In March, I moved back home to West Sussex, back with my parents’ until I have saved up enough to put a deposit down on a place of my own! So I’ve been trying to find my feet again, while also working through some mental health stuff. I really thought I was weeks away from coming off my antidepressants, but it turns out I was lying to myself, and to everyone else!
My moods have been on the up, and my anxiety has reared it’s ugly head much less frequently over the past few weeks. But I still have the occasional blip every 1-2 weeks and it all adds up. My physical health has been suffering too, with pulled muscles and sprained ankles. I’ve been mostly happy, but sometimes unable to work for very long!
I’ve been learning a lot about the Law of Attraction…
I’ve been listening to loads of videos by Leeor Alexandra, Aaron Doughty and Abraham Hicks, as well as others. I’ve been expanding my mind and learning how to feel happy, loved and confident using the Law of Attraction. It’s early days, but I’ve found something that really works for me!
I’ve been following my path of least resistance – the path of most allowing – and listening to my “non-physical self” – my feelings. I’ve been allowing myself to eat the foods that make me feel good, see the friends that make me feel happy and get the sleep that makes me feel less zombie-like! I’ve stopped watching EastEnders, stopped engaging with people who drain me in one way or another, and let myself off the hook when I start getting too stressed about work.
So I’ve decided to take a few weeks off!
I’ve reached breaking point. And sometimes that what you need to make a shift in life! I haven’t had real time off in almost 5 years, when I left WHSmith and had an entire week off in between leaving my job and starting my business.
I will be working during this time, but it will be much more fluid. I will fulfil all my outstanding orders, and I will still take on new orders, but these won’t be sent out until August. I need a break from the endless deadlines! And it’s entirely within my power to take it.
I’ll also be spending the next 3 weeks focusing on my new collection, which I’ve had mapped out for weeks now, but haven’t had an opportunity to get started on. I know you’ll love it! It’s very me!
I want to feel like me again!
More importantly, I’m going to spend some time doing the other things I love! I’m going to do a lot of reading! I’m going to dust off my violin. I’m going to finish painting my room, so I can feel more settled here. I want to minimise and declutter. I’m planning to get some new furniture so that my fabrics are all in one place (I love being organised and I haven’t felt organised since moving back home).
I want to sort out my sleeping pattern. At the moment I’m getting a regular 4 hours a night, and then another hour in the afternoon after I’ve been to the post office. I want to be able to work through a 10:00 – 18:00 day without crashing! I want to start making better use of my gym membership!
So from Tuesday 9th July – Wednesday 31st July, I am off duty! I’m going to allow myself some freedom and fluidity, take it easy, be kind to myself and hopefully be more productive and efficient when I come out the other end!
See you soon!